Christmas season

My all time FAVORITE time of the year. It even tops my birthday and thanksgiving. This year I had no problem finding gifts for everyone and I was planning on spreading out the spending of the gifts from thanksgiving to just before christmas so that my wallet wouldn't see such a huge hit all at once. Good planning but thats not what happened. I have bought all my presents with the exception of one because it has not come out yet, and I am feeling it now that I have no gas and little money to fill it. The problem with buying things so early is that I have to keep it a secret and that is really hard for me when I know they are going to love what I got them because, like my mom she has been asking for the same thing for ever. I want to give her the gift right now.

I went into work the day after thanksgiving and they had christmas music playing. It mad my day go back alot fast because I really don't like my job. This way I was able to sing and have some fun. This is the season that everyone seems to be in a little bit of a better mood and I love it.

Thanksgiving

I love thanksgiving it is one of my favorite holidays. This year I did the same thing that we have done the last three years. We go to my aunts house and we bring the pie. It was a great day we all ate way to much, all except my son. He wouldn't eat the turkey, ham, potatoes or the cheesey potatoes. However, while I was in the bathroom my cousin and my parents fed him pie, which he loved. I didn't realize they did it untill afterwards. It was a very relaxing time. I got to see my extended family again. We don't get together very much, so it's nice to catch up with them after so long. My sister didn't come this year, she decided to go to her boyfriends house. Every year she goes there she expects thier thanksgiving to be like ours and it never is. Last year they put the turkey in when it was frozen and they thought it would cook in two hours. As you can guess it didn't so they didn't have turkey. This year they were going to have dinner at two so she did not come to my aunt's because we were also eatting at two. This year she was once again disapointed. They got there and didn't eat until five, and there was no pumpkin pie. She came home complaining about everything that happened and I told her... that she needs to be thankful for the time she gets to spend with that side of the family because she never sees them. If she wants thanksgiving to be like at our aunts she should have it at her house instead. I think I got her thinking about next year, in her new house.

Why is it the nice ones that suffer?

I have had to deal with a lot of bad things in my life. I'm not going to bore you with details but they have made me to be a strong person. The last week however has been hard. My uncle, who lives in Madison has been sick for a while but it wasn't until recently that he developed kidney failure. We spent the last week there with him while he got dialysis and other treatments to try and help things and they would get better then worse and he is still not doing well but that is not really why I'm writing. It makes me wonder with all the nice people that these horrible things happen to why does it always happen to the people that seem to be the nicest or have the most going for them. Like what happened with Alicia this last weeks what the heck are people thinking. Everyone in the town loved her and she gets killed. Tell me how this is fair. You never hear about how the abusive boyfriend dies or how these horrible people got hurt and are paralyzed it's always the nice people. Then I got to thinking, maybe it is not that we don't hear about it, maybe it is that we don't care when it happens to someone that was abusive or drank heavily. Maybe we still like to look at the best in some people when we are close to them and still say just because they had this problem doesn't make them bad. I don't know why it seems like it is that way. I just can't seem to get it out of my head. Any thoughts?

Nobel Paper

When researching my nobel winner I found some interesting information that got me thinking. He studied stem cells in mice. I'm not going to go into detail telling how he did it, if you really want to know that then i'll send you the paper when i'm done and you can read it then. Basically he studied how to give mice cancer and other illnesses so that they can study it from start to death. I am torn in two directions if it's right to do this or not. On one side if it helps them find a cure then hey go for it. On the other hand these are living creatures and who says we have the right to basically kill them. I was talking about this with my sons sitter and she mad a good point. She said that if you believe in the bible and all that God gave humans the right over all animals to do with them what we need to to live, (and cure illnesses). On the other hand if you believe in PETA then we have no right to do this to the mice. However, i have a feeling that the first person that believes in PETA gets cancer they will want them to be researching on mice and testing things to find a cure.

"co-Parenting" classes

In my last post I mentioned a lovely class that I was ordered to go to by the court. It is supposed to teach us how to co-parent. I was told to start out with that it was every monday this month for two hours. When I got there however, I was told it is a eight week class and like I feared it is us sitting in a circle talking about things. The whole two hours last night we sat and listened to this guy talk horrible about his ex wife. It was the most boring class ever. I wanted to turn to him and say that he needs to just shut up, no one wants to hear every detail of his life. I mean I understand having to vent, I just did in that last post. There is a limit to how and what you should say to people you have never met. One good thing about the class, that doesn't really make sence, we don't have to talk or even sit by eachother. We don't interact at all. Don't you think that would be the whole point of the class would be to talk? Most the other people that are there are alone and I wish that they would have let me take the class 8 months ago like I was supposed to with out him. Oh well, I will keep you updated.

single parenting ...not that simple

I wish it was just that, single parenting. I have raised my son since he was born. His, what others call his father(I personally don't think of him as any such thing), has not been around really at all since i have had him until recently. Now that my son has turned one however, he is telling people he has been involved the whole time and making me seem like the bad one in the situation. I have to say he has come over four times in that year and called once right before my son turned one asking if he could come over to see him. I did say no. Don't get me wrong I have a good reason, he called my at 9:30pm and my son was already sleeping. He got very angry at me and is threatening to bring me to court. Back on track a little bit. I now by court orders have to go to a "parenting together when you are not together" class every Monday night for two hours with him. I did not receive this information until last night when I called him for other reasons regarding my son. He told me we had a class but wouldn't tell me where it was or when. I then called his mother today asking her if she had information on it and she let me know so that I wouldn't get in trouble by the courts; which was his plan all along I found out from his sister. I have not gone to the class yet but I am dreading it. I will let you all know what happens, I have a horrible feeling however that things are not going to go well and that it is one of those things you sit in a circle and share things. :-( I pray it's not.

Sarah Mullenbach

This is more of a serious, touching, sad type story that might go into me ranting about how I hate people who drink and dirve. You have been warned. To start out for those of you that don't play golf or are not from this area, Sarah Mullenbach was a golfer on the Holmen High school golf team. She was a great player and was nice to everyone. She was one of those people that even if she didn't know you she still would say hi and try and help you with anything you needed. She was one of my good friends. Not only from golf but in school. I looked up to with everything in my life. When one day it was all riped away from me and MANY others. It was the Thrid of July at 10 in the morning when she was driving to see a movie with her family when she was hit by a drunk driver. The man hit the median and flew over it and landed on top of her tiny car on the total opposite side of the highway pushing her and her car off the road and up the side of the hill. Sarah and her car was crushed. I didn't find out untill the next morning when my parents came in and woke me up. I can't even explain what I felt. It didn't really hit me untill almost a week later after the funeral. I didn't talk to anyone that week and it was the worst experiance of my life. This is one of the major reasons why I don't drink and get VERY angry when people talk about drinking and then driving home and they think it's the funniest thing. HELLO, it's not funny people die. I wish that would sink into people's heads. It is not just you on the road and if or when you hit someone it is not only you that is being affected.They have family and friends and so do you. Please don't drink and drive, you hurt more then you realize.